Don’t tell me that everything happens for a reason
Even if you could follow the smoke
To where this fire began
And you could point to the
Garden that will bloom
Out of my misery
It simply would not help
Thank you
For your Bible verses
And encouraging messages,
But it is not what i require
i know that i will feel better with time
i know that statistically speaking
Something pleasant will
Come out of this shit
But you have to understand
That i don’t understand
And your facts and well wishes
Are incapable of cradling me
During this prolonged exhale of my soul
Because this is the worst kind of pain
It is not a shot in the side
Or a stab in the back
A quick, cutting sensation
Emphasis on quick
This suffering clings to the air
It stops my heart and clogs my lungs,
But keeps my eyes open
To watch you hurt
It is a slow wooden sword
That has cut into my side
As it carves across my frame
I can feel each uninvited splinter
Adding to the wound
That will never fully be healed
It is a long, barren road on a silent drive
The moments that stretch themselves into eternities
Just before the rising of the sun
This dull throbbing in my core
Which propels me to the brink of numbness,
But spitefully grants me sensation
Is lollipops and lilacs
When compared to watching you hurt
Because, you see, there is nothing i can’t fix
The tool belt that hangs on my hips is full
i’ve got a sewing kit for anyone
Who is falling apart
Chocolate for a broken heart
Jumper cables if your car won’t start
But i cannot fix this
All i can do is cry
And bake lots of pies
To build a makeshift,
Cherry scented shelter
Around your tattered soul
But i don’t want to help
A part of you
i want to fix the hole
In your heart
This gash in your side
Because run as we like, Dear,
There is nowhere to hide
But I know that i can’t
Because i have already tried
To stretch my flesh
To cover you from this
Shocking explosion
But i am stuck
Watching the erosion
Of innocence
From your poetic eyes
Watching the pretty blue birds
Fall from your skies
This is the slowest fucking quicksand that i’ve ever seen
As it greedily swallows our dreams
As I pound at the glass
Of this one-way mirror
Screaming to be just one inch nearer
To you while your hope
Is ripped at the seams
But at least we’ve got that, right?
Hope.
As tattered and mangled as it is
It is not gone
So i suppose we can stand
And say through our tears
We haven’t lost it all.