what i intend to be

you need not ask me what i intend to do, but rather what i intend to be

i intend to be a voice for the unspoken
i intend to be a constellation that spells out hope for this darkening world

i intend to read
i intend to write
i intend to embark upon a relentless pursuit of wisdom

i intend to break
i intend to rebuild
i intend to accept my flaws and not allow them to become a barricade for the movements of God

i intend to love
i intend to attempt to understand how it is to love well

i intend to hurt
i intend to not to numb myself to the peaks and valleys of this life

i intend to question everything
i do not intend to find all the answers that i seek
i intend to find comfort in the discomforting grays of this world

i intend to become gray, a hue that makes all others brighter

i intend to fight
i intend to lose
i intend to fight again

i intend to live past mere existence
i intend to love past mere acceptance

i would also like to be employed
and to be able to feed myself,
but all of this is secondary to my aforementioned desires

-Delilah Davies